Yesterday was pretty rough- one of my low energy sad type of days.
I hate days like this. I wake up and I know it’s going to be a bad day. This cloud of doom settles over me, my heart sags and I can barely move.
I’ve danced around this for years but I don’t think I’ve ever actually come out and said it but I struggle with depression. I have struggled with depression for a long time.
Sometimes it’ll go away for weeks or months and I’ll think “I’m cured!” But then it comes back and I know that I have to battle it all over again. Today it came back with such force that it felt like there was no way to win. The fact that I haven’t slept in two days due to the excruciating pain in my tooth probably had a lot to do with it. There was just no escaping the pain and when I feel pain I cry – simple as that.
But the difference between how I handled my depression a few years ago and how I handle it now is that I’m better at pushing through it.
I don’t just give up, crawl back into bed and take a ‘mental health day’ anymore. I get up, get active and choose to be happy instead. Today I made myself hang out at Barnes, drink iced tea, read books and work on my new blog. When I got back home I decided to get creative and make a couple of Vine videos and wouldn’t you know it, I felt better.
Laughter really is the best medicine.
So if you’re like me, battling depression or just having a bad day – don’t let your day go to waste. Get out of bed, get dressed, put on makeup, get out of the house, blast music, make some Vine videos, laugh, workout, treat yourself to an ice cream…or simply jump up and down for five minutes.
Don’t let the sadness win. Save your ‘mental health days’ for when you’re going to the beach or sneaking off to an afternoon movie.
And if you’re feeling overwhelmingly depressed and having thoughts of suicide you should seek professional help. At least pick up the phone and reach out to a friend. Don’t go through those dark moments alone. Asking for help does not make you weak…you can still be a strong (Black) woman even if you’re sad or in need of help.
I mentioned earlier in this post that I worked on my new blog.
It’s the official blog for That Former Sidekick Girl. It launches August 4 and right away I want to do my first ever Giveaway!
Remember- you can choose happiness. Even if you have to fake it until you really feel it. Fake it til you feel it!
Go Be Happy. Now.