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Last night I had a dream about my nemesis.
Nearly four years ago I moved to London. One Masters Degree and two wedding ceremonies later I now find myself settling in a new place – Italy. Life moves fast.
It’s so quiet now. Sometimes it’s awesome but sometimes I miss the sound of the tube rushing by my window late at night when I can’t sleep – like right now. I’m homesick so I dreaming about people from LA is to be expected.
In the dream, my nemesis was moving in with me. She’d just got into town and had already met all the major players in the Italian film industry and mastered the Italian language. She made it look so effortless. And in the dream, I was totally jealous.
What does it mean when you dream about your nemesis?
I call her my nemesis but I’ve never thought of her as an enemy or competition. Yes, we were both Black female actors and writers trying to make it in Hollywood but I’d always wanted to see her as an ally or friend.
But that wasn’t in the cards for us. And so my nemesis has been in my life (mostly in my imagination) as a source of inspiration. Without her knowledge, she’s pushed me to be a better writer. Whenever I’d see her succeeding (or flailing) via our connected social media sites it would motivate me to get back to my Youtube videos. She may not have been my friend but she’s been an important part of my journey from Los Angeles to London and now to Italy.Can you relate? Share this post with your friends! Click To Tweet
And I don’t think it’s a coincidence that she’s turned up in my subconscious just as I’m getting settled into my new home and contemplating a career change.
I’d just been thinking to myself, “What am I going to do with my life?” I have a film degree and a degree in Media Communications and I studied Musical Theatre but what can I do with any of that all the way out in bumblef*ck Italy?
What do I do now?
And I was so close to letting go of the thing I love most – this dream of being a writer.
Until I had that dream. Once again my nemesis has unwittingly put me back on track by reminding me of who I am and what I’m supposed to be doing.
I’m supposed to be writing. And I think it’s time I got back to doing that.
Ciao for now,
That Former Sidekick Girl x